secret summer of double existence in a big ocean of plants and poison


When people ask me what I do, I usually only tell them half of the story…that I´m an artist and make installations with plants and architecture…but I haven´t really had much time for that lately… because I have been working a job job. This summer I have been working as a garden warehouse assistant and cashier. That means that like many of my creative type friends, I have to have a side job in order to pay off student loans and eat food. What does this do to how we identify ourselves out in the world? Living two separate lives…as a cashier, barista, teacher etc. to support our studio time. So, I have decided to stop being ashamed of my failure to exist as an artist alone and share my reality.

A little info about where I´m working…The store is a corporate chain and I knew this when I filled out the application, I made a conscious choice. I just wanted for once to walk in, do my thing unnoticed, get my paycheck and leave, knowing everything else was organized like a well oiled machine. But after a very short while, I realized it wasn´t going to go as I had planned at all. Everything about working for a corporate giant goes against my years of training as a pretentious dissident…I find myself ranting to anyone who will listen about how they sell deadly poisonous Monsanto products (not one mention of the word organic in the store), they do not compost when they throw away their plants (which are so very many because they don´t pay us to keep them alive so much as to stock and sell)…and the “head office” is watching every action, every detail of every- thing- we- do. My hopes of coming to work and doing my thing unnoticed is very much impossible. As a side note: I´m also allergic to whatever the hell kind of herbicide/pesticide/growth hormone they spray on these poor leaves and flowers in the greenhouse before delivering them to us. It makes my arms itch like a demon.

Living as an artist with an MFA is not romantic, it is real. And the reality is that most of us cannot support ourselves by selling our work, don´t know how to manage the business side of the deal, or maybe don´t want to sell it in the first place, and that leads to a double life. I think we owe it to ourselves to respect our creativity and actually find a way to make a living from that alone. For some of you its selling out, but for me, selling out is spending all my waking hours walking towards a dead end. I decided to go back to school this fall and learn how to use my creative skills to support myself. This hadn´t even occurred to me when I got my MFA. The most important thing to me then was self-expression. Food and bills were an afterthought. The MFA grad school machine is pumping out professional artists at a rate that cannot be sustained and needs to be reeled in. Maybe some of us should never have chosen this path in the first place, maybe we needed better economic or organizational guidance, and maybe we just need a better socialized support system that invests more in creativity than guns. I don´t have an ultimate solution. But I think its worth talking about. I don´t regret the paths I´ve taken, I hope they have made me a wiser, more well-rounded person.

You may disagree with my point of view and have a different experience of post grad living. You may even be an artist that believes in a completely different non-monetary system outside the system, one based more on exchange, or some other nuanced community anti-system-system. I support your choices, and I have lived among you. But I think we do ourselves a disservice by ignoring that even the anti-establishment serves a purpose in capitalist society. For those of us who are currently somewhere in the grid, my reality is very common. I welcome a debate on the subject. I want something else for myself and my future family and this is my story. And until the day comes that I can live a unified life,  its a summer of double existence in the big ocean of plants and poison.

Norconsult and Tangen development project!!

NYKULTURMINNE bakgaardendoubleThese last few weeks I´ve been taking part in a training/internship at Norconsult in Hamar. They did a week of public city planning workshops to develop a sleepy little town into something wonderful. Here are my two favorites of the pre-viz illustrations I did for them..(these are just the experiments, not the final versions)

revisiting the revisitation of gordon matta-clark´s fake estates



Gordon Matta-Clark and Fake Estates
In the early 1970s, Matta-Clark discovered that the City of New York periodically auctioned off “gutterspace”—unusably small slivers of land sliced from the city grid through anomalies in surveying, zoning, and public-works expansion. He purchased fifteen of these lots, fourteen in Queens and one in Staten Island. Over the next years, he collected the maps, deeds, and other bureaucratic documentation attached to the slivers; photographed, spoke, and wrote about them; and considered using them as sites for his unique brand of “anarchitectural” intervention into urban space. Matta-Clark died in 1978 at the age of 35 without realizing his plans for Fake Estates, and ownership of the properties reverted to the city. The archival material that he had assembled went into storage and was not rediscovered until the early 1990s, when it was assembled into exhibitable collages. Thus,Fake Estates has emerged not only as a mordant commentary on issues surrounding property, materiality, and disappearance that marked the whole of Matta-Clark’s career, but as artifacts of his own estate, reminders of the powers of absence and presence that govern our relationship to the past.

Cabinet magazine

Landscape Architecture Magazine

From the March 2013 issue of LAM:

By Michael Van Valkenburgh, FASLA, with William S. Saunders

Unlike architecture, landscape architecture evolves (and almost always improves) through time. Its parks and gardens are never complete. Or rather the finished landscape of today is not the finished landscape of many years from now. Landscape architects must more deliberately include in their work predictions of how it will change. Yet few landscape professionals continue being involved in their built works beyond a year or two after opening day. What happens? The site is taken over by natural processes and unplanned human impacts or by its caretakers, who, at least partially, become its new designers, typically with little direction from the original designer. Yet if the landscape architect’s design matters on day one, it matters equally in year five and beyond.

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new studio! at the Hamar development studios for film and arts

After over a year and a half without a studio, I finally found a space! It needs some fixing up, but has big potential!



While my website domain is in the process of being renewed, I thought I would post some of my finished projects here for the curious!

Victory! Victory!Building DwellingSustainability Second PinkMasanobu FukuokaMaproom

Lillehammer trip today

On a little day trip to Lillehammer today I visited the Lillehammer Museum…and saw for the first time the work of Leonard Rickhard and Roald Kyllingstad…cool paintings and drawings (sorry they are a little out of focus)…and they have a beautiful pile of a waterfall in the central courtyard designed by Bård Breivik, that was working today ( the last time I visited it was covered with ice and snow).

Norway seen from the road 1733–2020

These beautiful models are made by Carl-Viggo Hølmebakk for his Vøring Waterfall design project in Hardanger and Peter Zumthorfor his Zinc Mine Museum project in Allmannajuvet, Sauda. They are on display at the Nasjonalmuseet – Arkitektur until oktober 2012 in the exhibition: Utsikter. Norge sett fra veien 1733–2020 (Views. Norway Seen from the Road)

One-Straw Revolution

Masanobu Fukuoka has long been an inspiration of mine ever since I learned about him at Bread and Puppet in 2000. Although the “road back to nature” is now an outdated concept, and it is much more holistic to accept the technology and mistakes we make as part of our nature…he was a visionary in his time and we can still learn so much from his theories about do-nothing-farming. Check out his work and ideas here : One-Straw Revolution


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